Anak Cupu

"Lo gak pernah pacaran, ga ngerokok, ga minum, ga pernah clubbing... Nadia... Masih ada cewe kayak lo ya di era ini?"

Call me a nerd, but I have nothing against the term, to be honest. I kinda like being the nerd among the clan. The one that you can tease or mock with all your might without having the slightest thought of being annoyed or offended. I like nerdy guys too. Suspenders, glasses, checkered shirts. Yes, you got the vision right. The nerdier, the better. I recently saw a movie that has Michael Cera starring in it, and yes, he turns me on, in a less provocative way, of course.

Boro-boro aneh-aneh sama cowo, dipegang tangannya sama cowok aja gemeteran. Yes, I would definitely want to know how it feels like to change boyfriends every week, tapi apa daya, mimpi tak sampai. Make-up ga beres, boro-boro bisa jalan lurus pake hak, kadang gue mempertanyakan jati diri gue sebagai wanita.

"Gue umur 19 mah lagi gila-gilanya 'berhubungan' sama cowo gue, Nad, waktu itu," kata temen gue yang berumur 23. "Gila, umur segitu, ya lagi menggebu-gebunya lah," dia melanjutkan ceritanya. Ini emang gue yang ga waras atau emang jaman makin edan sih? Gue kayaknya tinggal di dalem goa deh selama ini. What exactly am I missing out?

The answer? Nothing. Pertanyaannya sama kayak gini, "Do you want to have kids?" And my answer is as common as other girls would have to say about it. "Sure I do." But do I want to have kids NOW? 'Now.' You see, one word change the whole question. Of course not. Most of us aren't ready, even we have a hard time taking care of ourselves, with the laundry, and the chores, and the homework and other things to complicate life along. "So do you want to have sex?" Yes, at the right time, I do. But do I want to have sex "now" is when I have to shake my head and disagree with popular belief.

Bukan masalah siapa yang benar atau siapa yang salah. Kembali lagi sama pegangan hidup. Mereka bilang suruh coba dulu baru bisa ngomong. That is like saying, "You have to kill someone to know that it's illegal." Seperti halnya sama pisau. Pisau itu bisa digunakan untuk kebaikan, atau untuk kejahatan, depends on the person who has it, right? Pisau bisa digunakan buat masak, bisa juga untuk membunuh, the person who holds the knife make the call. But it doesn't take a genius to realize that you don't have to commit a sin to know something is wrong.

Mereka suruh gue 'cobain' aja pacaran. Dimana-mana orang ulangan harian (Baca: Pacaran) dulu, masa langsung Ujian Akhir (Baca: Menikah). Timing is everything, when the time's right, everything will be beautiful. Gue ga harus menurunkan standard gue, just to please people I don't even like, do something I don't even want to do, with the person I don't want to be with. "Ya elah, Nad, udah mau masuk kepala 2, boleh lah sekali-sekali pacaran." Kalo udah merasa siap, gue akan siap kok. "Umur segini jangan serius-serius amat, Nad, cari cowonya. Santai aja lagi." Ya, mungkin cara pandang gue beda. Harus serius dong, kalo main-main kapan abisnya?

Risih ga sih dicomelin sama orang-orang yang cara pikirnya berbeda jauh? SANGAT. But I look at it this way, I can go to their level any day if I want it to, endless night in clubs, smoke weed, crack, sleep with guys, but they can't go back to the level where I'm standing even if they want or plead or beg to.

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